sometimes

when you lose something

big

you wanna begin

you want to start again

with another thing

another life's work

another dramatic tail of people

who lost themselves

found each other

and God

and lived happily

for their rest of their lives

but

some-

times

it's...

it is better

not to

better to wait

denied

to labor

to lose once

to find

to search

to be lost in the getting there

this is not THE time.

this is the time

of waiting

wanting, searching, soft lamenting

hoping half drunk

half sober half-hope

half despair

someday it will

someday

i will sing

"at last..."

and we will be

we