when you lose something
big
you wanna begin
you want to start again
with another thing
another life's work
another dramatic tail of people
who lost themselves
found each other
and God
and lived happily
for their rest of their lives
but
some-
times
it's...
it is better
not to
better to wait
denied
to labor
to lose once
to find
to search
to be lost in the getting there
this is not THE time.
this is the time
of waiting
wanting, searching, soft lamenting
hoping half drunk
half sober half-hope
half despair
someday it will
someday
i will sing
"at last..."
and we will be
we
